HONK if you're HORNy.
I feel so... loved. (: as in, just that I think I'm surrounded by really nice people now. in general. who're really very sweet. so yea I'm quite happy with my life right now. I think my life is sweet now. haha xD really though. it is.hmm today first day of school.. I shan't be blogging as frequently now that school's reopened. mum says I've been online way too much for my own good, and quite frankly she's right. though I wouldn't say momma knows best.. all the time. (;
it's funny though. during the hols I was like SHIT, I wanna go back to school. life is damn boring can. but this morning when my dad was sending me back to school I kinda felt like I wanted him to turn round the car and send me back home. cos I don't wanna go back to school cos school is such a dragggggg.
well not all the time. but you know, the lessons part of it is hahaha. (x
you know what, I was just thinking. how come people tend to objectify certain types of people? as in like classify them as a certain type of person lah, haha. like you know the bimbos, the players, that sort of thing. it's not like it's unjustified most of the time, and I'm not saying I don't do it either. but it's just that. well. wouldn't life be nicer if everyone thought of everyone else as unique individuals?
haha I know it's a very politically correct thing to say, but I do believe that there's something special about everyone. no matter how corny it may sound. xD honestly though, if you look closely enough, it's true. it takes a certain type of person to be able to see the xfactor in everyone, and I wish I could be like that.
life would just be way more fulfilling than it is now. I mean it's better than like giving someone a once-over and putting them into a certain category without a second thought.
LOL. why 'm I suddenly being so deep -_- haha (x
ohyeah I haven't blogged about og outing have I? xD ahh I shall blog about it some other time.. now I wanna talk about my dad.
MY DAD! is an awesome man. don't get me wrong. he's really awesomely freaking good at what he does, and I'm so so proud of him for that.
but I just don't like it when he gets pissed. in fact it I really hate it. it's like when he's pissed he flings insults at everyone under the sun. I mean I've only ever heard him use the f-word on a guy once, but you don't have to use the f-word sometimes to hurt a person what.
it's insane. he has this uncanny ability to know exactly what to say to make you feel like the foulest piece of trash on the face of the earth, for all the times you've convinced yourself you're good. it's not exactly the things he says either, it's how he says it. like he means every single syllable.
you know he doesn't, that that's just his anger speaking, but somehow it just gets to you. because you know you're not what he's calling you, but you can't say anything to defend yourself. when he gets mad, he thinks no one in the whole wide world has a right to be pissed other than him. all hell breaks loose if you try and speak up for yourself.
he needs anger management, even my mum says it, cos she feels the sting sometimes too. but it's different for her than for me, you know? because like that's like the man she loves, unconditionally, come what may, you know all that pizzazz. she can accept him for who he is.
I'm not saying that I don't love my dad unconditionally, which daughter doesn't? and I realize that I may sound like an ungrateful bitch when I say this, but I wish he'd just change that part of him, and I'd love him even more.
I don't know, maybe it takes time, maybe it's only because I'm sixteen, maybe it's because of all the shit that's happened in the last two years between me and daddy dearest, maybe it's even the stupid (cliched as it might be) generation gap, but.. I wish I could understand the way my dad thinks sometimes. like try as I might, I can't, sometimes. it's not like we're on polar opposites, but. I can't. I can't understand how he can come to certain conclusions despite having so little evidence.
eek. this scares me, thinking of my dad like this. lol.
I guess I could learn to accept the flaws in his personality, though. this is my dad, I have to anyways. it's part of being a good girl! :D
geez.. good girl. wth. alright I'll stop now. got some more errands to run, for mum, for my bro, for myself. :D bye (:
posted by aney @ 4:25 PM
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