triviality;
urgh I'm damn pissed. friggin, fuggin pissed. but I don't care, I'm not gonna force myself to get over it. because it feels like it all comes down to this. but you know what, there really was nothing before this, why dyou make it seem like it's all happened? nothing has and that's exactly why I'm ignoring youu. it's not like I can just waltz up to you and go like hey it kills me not being able to see you. but yeh, you don't have to know that, because I don't know if you feel the same way, and you probably don't because why should you, and you have her anyways don't you why the heck would you even notice me like that huh??you think so friggin far and so damn deep into it that in the end it's like you're pulling yourself away just because of something that isn't even true in the first friggin place, how could you?
hah you don't know how much it hurts to love you. I think it's never hurt like this before, not even that time three years ago. I can't even begin to say how much I'm into you because I don't even know it myself, I've never gone so far so fast and quite frankly it scares me to death.
it's not because of you or anything you've done, or anything you are, but there's just something about you which has just really pulled me in, and I'm in deep. and I think if I don't sort this out soon I'm not just gonna be in deep, I'm gonna be in deep shit. except I don't wanna sort it out because even if it hurts, I don't wanna know what the truth is. I love you so much and it kills me to hide it every time I see you it fucking hurts.
posted by aney @ 11:32 PM
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