I'm lucky tmr only got one tutorial, don't need to prepare anything. damn shagged now, man.
today was also the first time in my life that I got physically beaten by a guy other than my brother or my dad! haha qiwen smacked my leg damn hard lah. it turned so freaking red at first. then after a while went away. haha I deserve it, I've been smacking guys since forever. hahaha. hey but it's fun. in a sadistic way. (x
still. I think I shouldn't sit with the guys during tutorials. I need 100% concentration and if I sit with the guys all I get is people talking nonsense in my ear. haha.
spent practically the whole afternoon studying. I wanna die. I suck at math, and I don't understand econs, and well. basically that's it. haha. it's really horrible that math is not something that you can sit down, stare at, read over and over again, and just get it. or maybe it's just me. HAHAHA. really though, wish math was more like history. not always easy to understand, but STILL very much understandable.
anyhow that's the main reason I'm damn shagged. I need to get back into study mode. the mode that I was in at the start of last year. and then subsequently slipped out of... hahaha. I need to be able to sit down and go at it for six hours straight (with toilet and 7eleven breaks, of course)!
afters went home with my bro, who was having german class. I really felt like a zombie while walking towards the bus stop. geez. and that wasn't even six hours. ...or 12, which is what I think people normally clock once Alevels looms dangerously close.
anyway the most extraordinary thing happened on the way home! haha okay I wouldn't call it extraordinary lah, actually. just that it's so damn unexpected it had the effect of brightening me up.
so I was going home, thinking about maths tuition and econs tuition, and then my thoughts drifted to someplace else, and basically I was just feeling like a piece of shit because thinking of that certain someone makes me pissed off and weak-hearted and worried and depressed and strangely, REALLLLLYYY strangely, happy, in a weird sort of way..
you know that kind of mood where you're not really thinking and you're just staring out into space and seeing the people and places pass by, but not really noticing anything? I get into that mood when I'm damn tired, and today I was like that on 156. haha.
bus stopped outside cjc, and then there was these three mats sitting at the bus stop and I just stared and stared at them relentlessly, for no reason at all. and I think they were starting to get freaked out. then one of them smiled and held out his hand, and did that gesture that li ki did when she said "like a dungbeetle" and I completely cracked upppp hahahaha. and so did his friends, it was damn funny.
strange, man. just a simple thing like that, makes me feel so much better... hahaha.
OMG I JUST FELL ASLEEP IN FRONT OF THE LAPTOP OH SHIZ HOW TO DO MATH D: D: D: HOW TO STAY UP TO WATCH OBAMA'S INAUGURATION (did I spell it right? -.-)
posted by aney @ 9:09 PM
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