\since we're such awkward bedfellows

I am soooooooo worried for my maths right now, omg seriously okay I don't think I've ever been more worried for any other subject ever in my entire life, even chem can't beat this. in fact I was never really worried for chem -.-

really I am so fucking worried I could cry, and I'm not even kidding, I'm tearing okay shit.

I'm horrrrrrrrible at maths and dropping to h1 is not an option. I went for some overseas education fair last weekend and it's seriously scary, the cutoff points are so freaking high. I needdddd every single point I can get, every single A that there is to get. shit. and I know I'm better than h1, I mean no offense to everyone taking h1 math but I CAN'T DROP! I know, I just know, that I can do it and get that A at the end of the day despite everything... call it blind faith, I'm inclined to call it high self-esteem (:P) but I'm gonna need all the help I can GET!

which means. I need TUITION! and I need individual tuition. but it's so damn ex you know, it's like 600bucks a month, and my dad doesn't it wanna pay.. which means. HOW WILL I GET BETTER?! don't even talk about getting an A, how the fuck am I supposed to passsssssss. I mean it's one thing to say I'm willing to give my all and do whatever it takes, but I can't do this aloneeeeeeeee, I need HELP, GOOD help.

I definitely am going to ask that new teacher for consultations but how many consultations can I expect, man. at my current level of understanding, if I had my way, I'd have 4 consultations a week, each lasting an hour.

it's seriously stressing me out lahhhh. shit man... but I have to find a way. somehow, I have to. I want that A so badddddd. I know I can do it and I'm not gonna let anything stop me.

God help me, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

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that said, time to cheer myself up. wenqiang says my blog is super emo now, haha. well man. I'm sorry, but there's really not much that goes on in my life that's so interesting.

and.... I've got nothing more to say. I can't stop thinking about math. I'm currently doing math right now, and I'm that close to ripping my hair out. and this is just P&C. not even complicated shit like binomial expansion or summation or shit like that. ah.

LIFE JUST SUCKS RIGHT NOW, I'LL JUST LET MYSELF THINK THAT THE WHOLE NIGHT. ):

posted by aney @ 9:21 PM