today is the last day of 2008, so it would seem appropriate that I think about new year's resolutions. obviously the most anticipated event would be alevels. ha. but I'll keep my goals to myself, thanks :)
before that. 2008 has passed by in a blur. It is undoubtedly the best school year in my teenage life, it's just as good as primary 5. Let's try and recollect the best parts of the year.. in no particular order,
1. having an awesome class--need I say more?
2. finally being in a school with boys, and falling hard for two different people whom you might say are polar opposites of one other..
I definitely came out of that experience having learnt my lesson. never fall for guys whom you regard as "different", just because they're not like everyone else. phooooey. still, it's a bit wondrous how I managed to fall for such different people. I mean, one is the sweetest boy ever, and the other, well, er. is just not as?
that said, it's nice hanging out with the guys sometimes. they can be such gentlemen when they want to. and I somehow feel like I don't quite have to be so guarded around them.
3. going to four countries in a year!
indonesia, malaysia, turkey, and the uk! my only regret is that I didn't take a lot of pictures in the UK. I'm so glad my parents eventually let me go for the trip, though! I made a bunch of friends and even nursed a crush on one of them >.> woops?
and turkey, ohman. I have never been to such a livelier country in my life! the people are so spritely and warm it's hard not to like them, though I bet derek might beg to differ if he ever reads this, haha. he thinks they're the complete opposite. no harm done, though. different people, different opinions!
one more word: fatih! :) never have I seen eyes green-er than his. sigh.
4. starting the year with a refreshed view of life
and I mean starting 2008, not 2009. after a nasty heartbreak in 2007 I somehow realized that insecurity is really something tricky, that it could pull a curtain over your eyes if you let it rule your life.
I was jealous of a lot of people back then. then I realized you just have to stop being envious of what other people have and stop seeing all the inadequacies in yourself, and start being confident about who you are. essentially, nobody can make you feel less than you really are unless you let them do it.
that certainly made things a lot easier, though I still have other personal demons to deal with nonetheless.
5. getting over asssssssssssssyyyyyyyyrafffffffff
this is greatly due to a heart-to-heart with one of my classmates. if somebody has a huge inferiority complex and refuses to see that your heart does not belong to anyone other than him and gets jealous because you talk and laugh with a particular cute guy a lot, ain't my fault I didn't see it coming.
and I'm probably stretching it here, but it's like when a loved one departs this earth. it's simply fate, and it's wrong for you to wish you could have been there to do something or say something to avoid it happening.
yep. so. 2009..
1. romance: whatever man. I'm leaving it up to Him.
(and I will do my very best, whatever it takes, to get over you, and forget about you, because you're not worth my time)
2. studies: work like nobody's business, like furiously hard, and I mean furioussssssss, like I've never worked my butt off before. ever. UNTIL I GET IT RIGHT! until I know I've maximised my potential. because I haven't done that the entire 2008 and because quite frankly EVERYONE NEEDS TO.
3. family: mmm... my relationship with my brother has never been better, honestly speaking. but I could still be a better sister. and. well. I grudgingly decide to be a better girl.
posted by aney @ 6:36 PM
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