damn. they seemed like such a long time ago. it's just a very distant memory now. although it's only been seven months since rj life started. I think it's because rj life is dramatically different. a lot of people have changed since then, can see it in the way they behave and present themselves and everything.. it's not a bad thing, most of the time. it's just different.
maybe we all just want to leave our pasts behind. or maybe it's just me. haha. but I do feel so different from when I was still in rg. as in I think I've matured more.. I feel a lot more deserving of my age. haha. I know no one has to actually deserve an age, but what I mean is that I feel more like a 17-year-old now than I ever felt like a 15-year-old when i was 15.
and I also feel more confident now.. as in my self-confidence isn't exactly bursting through the roof right now or anything, because I still do feel that I need to improve on myself in certain aspects.. but I definitely am able to tell myself that I can get what I want with the proper attitude and the right amount of effort, without having that voice in the back of my head going, "are you sure you can do this." it's conviction, and I think I sometimes come across as a little egoistic because of that to some people who would see it that way.. but I don't know, I don't particularly care. judge me when you know me well enough to judge me, cos as far as I'm concerned, I only need to care what you think about me when you know me well enough to have a pretty good idea of what kind of a person I am. yeh.
anyway I'm not looking back. I'll still remember all my friends and everything, but I really have no intention of preserving those other memories in my head. bad bad memories, haha. ohwell. at least I can safely say I've left that part of me behind and I'm never going back to it again. (:
which reminds me. I still haven't collected my stupid o-level cert from rg. hahaha. and I haven't paid my really long overdue (rg) library fines either. how irrritating. to think they'd deprive you of your freaking IP cert because you didn't pay some stupid library fine wtf.
anyway the sooner I get it done with the better. which prolly means next week or something, because I'm short of money once again this week. besides, tmr I've got math remedial and cip briefing, and friday I've got econs remedial. I'm not going back to rg after that. T_T
hmph. screw you, rg.
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I was just thinking. I think strangers have this phobia of sitting beside me in trains and buses. seriously! I've just noticed it, but when someone comes to sit beside me in the bus or in the train, they get pretty restless. and then when someone else vacates another seat, they get up and take up that seat and thereby vacating the one beside me.
WHY. ): I tried to think why and I don't know why.
a) I stink really bad. (but it happens in the mornings too, and in the morning I smell like soap! BESIDES, I WEAR DEO ALL THE FREAKING TIME D:)
b) my music's too loud and it irritates people (haha I can't rule out this one.)
c) they don't like my face
d) they don't like raffles people (HAHA. yah obviously I couldn't think of any other reason. this one's just ridiculous.)
speaking of faces.. ros said I look like a frog. -.- a "pretty frog". no kidding. -.- she really said that, I think it's because of the expression I have on my face sometimes, apparently it's really funny. or something, I don't know.
anyway it bothers me that people don't find me a nice-looking enough person to be their seat companion. polly says I look extremely pissed off when I don't smile. maybe I just intimidate them HAHA. but honestly. am I supposed to forever plaster this uber fake smile on my face even when I'm AS TIRED AS A TYRE ):
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moving on! one more thing.. I think there's something about rj people and bad haircuts. seriously you know. I know more people in rj who have bad haircuts than any other circle of friends I might have. haha.
it'd be extremely fun to name people here, but I think it's embarrassing enough having horrible hair. so I'll be nice. not that my hair's very nice. more like comparatively nicer, hahaha. but I'm gonna cut it soon la. get short hair. don't care what my mum says, she's forever wanting me to keep long hair, and I'm quite sick of it.
some people have this inferiority complex about hair. HAHA that sounds damn weird, of all the things to have an inferiority complex about. sometimes the complex is justified, sometimes it's not.
okay to save my skin from being mass-murdered tmr morning when I go to school, I'ma say this: if I don't tell you straight up that your hair sucks, it probably means it isn't bad. either that, or I LIKE YOU. (haha what a freaking joke) or I don't care what you look like COS YOU'RE NOT IMPORTANT ENOUGH HAHAHA. if I tell you straight up that it sucks, it means it's bad. horrible.
okay you know somehow I don't think that helped, maybe this is better:
I'M SORRY IF I BRUISED YOUR EGO BY SAYING THAT YOUR HAIR SUCKS, BECAUSE THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS THAT I DON'T CARE. FUGLY HAIR OR NOT, YOU'RE STILL THE SAME PERSON INSIDE AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS. <3
hmm. I think I'm karma's gonna come back to me after I get my haircut in the hols haha. it'd be quite fun, actually. ...of all the frivolous things in the world to blog about -.-
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THE MUGFEST IS ON. it's time to get down & dirty! slimy & grimy.
PROMOS HERE I COME.
DAMN YOU ECONS, I'M GONNA FRICKING OWN YOU.
MATH- B! B! B!
IHIST- B!
SEAHIST- A! TRYTRYTRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
DONNE- B!
OTHELLO- B!
(haha no As yet. I'm saving that for A levels HAHA)
I'm gonna stay back in school until like 730 every day or something just to mug. I swear man. honestly if I don't do that I'll have no time to mug.
JIAYOU.
posted by aney @ 8:21 PM
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