\since we're such awkward bedfellows

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I'm facing a dilemma right now and I thought so much about it today that it's made me depressed. I don't even know why I care so much, I just do. the thing is that the person I care about probably doesn't even know it.

and even after thinking so much about it I didn't reach a conclusion.

I know what I'm expected to do. I know the consequences of choosing to do what I really want to do and believing there's a way out of it all. bad enough, given the sort of person I'm expected to be, (and I won't elaborate) even by normal standards I'm expected to be my daddy's daughter. (I won't elaborate on that either.)

and I know what I could do. the logical course of action, so to speak. the one that most everyone's been telling me to do. to save my own ass. well what if I don't WANT to just walk away and save my own skin? what if I choose NOT to? I'm not crazy just because I want to help, right?

then again it doesn't make sense.

so I'm VERY confused. and it makes me pissed. to put things simply. good night world.

posted by aney @ 11:42 PM