\since we're such awkward bedfellows

"yeah at the bindy wenches there"

honestly, you really really really irritate me you know. I don't think I've ever felt so irritated at anyone so frequently before. what the hell is wrong with you, I've got my own life and you've got yours, I don't do things the way you do things, that doesn't make me any less of a person than you are. sheesh!! just leave me alone lah walao.

I really wish I had my own room now. I don't feel like talking to my parents! they'll just ask me what I'm doing on my laptop, and I'll get even more irritated, and damn I just don't need that. daddy thinks I'm so terrified of him. HAH. HAHHAHAHA. yeah well. guess I'm feeling a tad rebellious tonight. okayyyyy so maybe it's not just tonight?! I mean I've always been this way haven't I haha. just that I don't show it that much, so. yea.

on a much lighter note,

PROMOS ARE OVER! EXTERMINATED! ELIMINATED! DON(N)E! :D :D :D :D

yeah science students, shut up. >=(

I am FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FREE TO PLAY MY PC GAMES AND MY XBOX AND MY GUITAR HERO AND OHGOSH I'M NOT A NERD OKAY SHUT UP. (:

anyway today was good! donne wasn't too bad and I don't think I messed up the unseen so I should be relatively okay! haha (: after school went to vivo to shop with chermaine and polly.

I wasn't intending to get anything at first but then i figured, I don't have any accessories for raya this wednesday and mum and dad are definitely not going to bother shopping any more (they never do a lot of shopping anyhoos) so I got myself a bracelet (which btw is too big cos my wrist is really very small. it's tiny, really, just ask polly hahaha) and um a necklace. yea. and I bought cookies! from candy empire! good deal--5.80 for two packets of NONSTOP! cookies awesome huh

and I decided that one day I'm gonna drag a few friends over to vivo to EAT. cos they have nice eating places there! ohyea which reminds me. polly and chermaine had their lunch at earle swensens while I literally sat there and watched them eat hahaha

they got ripped off! the whole thing cost them 44.50 altogether but the rice portion was so freaking tiny lah! you know if you buy chicken rice normally the amount of rice is measured by a bowl right... but at earle swensen's I think they used like a oversized thimble to measure the amount of rice they put on the plate. stupid, and the plate is so big!

and then we went back to orchard, to PS, cos chermaine needed to shop for something. and we ended up bumping into kexin ros val ruiling victor jonlim! a lot of times O.o bwahaha apparently they got ripped off as well cos they thought they were watching some chickflick which turned to be a really pointless slasher movie where everyone dies. haha.

WELL! CONSUMERISM'S A BITCH. :D

whatever.. I got on the bus and I seriously immediately fell asleep. damn tired after one whole week of late nights.. I seriously thought I was only sleeping for like 5 minutes max but when I woke up the bus was already one stop away from my bus stop! HAHA. :P

got home, the house was in an utter mess, because well my parents were springcleaning the place. more like autumncleaning, isn't it? I really have no idea. ohwell. just helped out clearing some stuff and throwing away junk and shit like that... which took a surprisingly long time! finally after I changed the pillow covers (they're RED now! WOOH!) I was free to plop my big ass down on the sofa, switch on the telly and watch some TEEVEE!

I swear I need to watch more teevee. I had problems remembering who teri hatcher is O.o hahaha anyway I watched friends, my wife and kids, and 8 simple rules. I think the wife in my wife and kids is damn irritating. she was squealing away about getting a blue dress and it was just really irritating she honestly sounded like a PIG! AH! couldn't they have gotten someone better -.-

hahaha but other than that I love my wife and kids quite a hilarious sitcom. :P I love the little kid who's such a smart-ass he teaches his dumbass big sis to cook. she's such a dumbass she put the chicken in the oven and DIDN'T SET THE TEMPERATURE. HAHA. HAHAHA. wonder if there are people like that in real life. HAHA. xP I bet there are! somewhere....

moving on! about f1! so obviously everyone knows ferrari screwed up and massa's pit crew messed up bigtime, but I never actually cared about the whole f1 thing until now. cos massa's actually a nice guy, he said it was only human to err and that he doesn't blame his pit crew. so kind! when it was his pit crew that made him drop from 1st to 13th if I'm not wrong.

I always thought f1 drivers were all a bunch of notorious playboys who never stop partying and have egos bigger than the size of mars (and no I'm not talking about the chocolate bar HAHA xD) and it seems that way with kimi raikkonen and increasingly so with lewis hamilton (who by the way, I don't think is hot, despite the papers saying he is?? he's just average!) but at least massa seems like a good guy. :P

ohwell. whatevs. and I can't believe hamilton said he "morally deserves" to win the race O.o nobody owes him anything! I mean I know there was some scandal before the singapore leg of the race but really man that doesn't mean you should automatically be secured the title simply because you were wronged. -.- just fight like everyone else has to do lah.

okay well I've just got one more thing to reflect upon... despite all that's happened I just can't help feeling indifferent at the way things have turned out. I don't regret my decision and I (astonishingly enough) am not as overcome with guilt about hurting him.. I really don't think it's my fault, he should have said something right? I've had just about enough of waiting, it's been close to seven months and even then I already gave him a second chance midway, and believe you me, it ain't easy for me to just anyhow give people another chance after they treat me like an asshole.

might sound incredibly selfish, but well I think it's only fair, cos I can't be expected to continue waiting and waiting when I have nothing to go on, nothing real to fall back on each time I start to wonder if it's even worth waiting for or not.

well. I do wish that things wouldn't have turned out this way, but since they have, all I can do is take the blow, accept that this is the way things are going to be from now on and take it as a learning experience and move on.

it still does kinda hurt to forget everything that happened, though. I feel like it was all wasted, that we had a good chance at being awesome together but we blew it.

sigh. ohwell. life's like that. gotta move on! cya guys HAVE FUN SLACKING. (:

(&tmr's the last day of the fasting month! :O)

posted by aney @ 11:32 PM