at least it gives me comfort to know that I really put in effort for the stuff that I did do, and i'm proud of how neat and wonderful it is. just that I don't think I'll be so proud of the content D: ACK. step by step lah kay?
I think I am getting the hang of JC life. little by little. I mean I more or less suck at pretty much everything except for GP and lit right now. but I am putting in a lot of effort into everything else. makes me shine with pride when I finally staple my maths tutorial together, after spending dunno how long on it, or when I look at my econs tutorial and think, wow, I actually put so much thought into it, how did that happen?? or when I read teacher's comments for my term essays, shit marks or no shit marks, and it says, 'a serious effort'.
WOOH. I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF :D putting in the effort is like half the battle won, isn't it? and then the other half is learning how to study smart, exam smart, eat sleep shit whatever smart, all that crap.
yaye. I'm damn happy with myself. I thank God secfour was horrible. if secfour wasn't horrible, J1 would have been a completely shitworthy experience so far. and I thank God I survived secfour with more dignity than I started out with :D
except that now, i need to get even tougher with myself. that means!
1. no more messing around. weekends = catchuponWORK time, not catchuponEAT/SLEEP/SLACK time. weeknights = do HMK, no HMK?! catchuponWORK! no work to catch up on?! NO SUCH THING, go and slap yourself D:
2. hmk-ed weeknights: online, status busy, ignore convos I don't need to have. sleep by 2am!
3. catchuponWORK-ed weeknights: online, status away, ignore convos with people I don't like. or don't care about. (hee) sleep by 12, latest 1am.
4. blogger: already cut down, now only blog when I'm bored and need a rest, or really have something to say. friendster: who the heck cares. absolutely NO signing in to friendster on hmk-ed weeknights. facebook: WHO CARES. my facebook is like halfdead. youtube: NO going on youtube on weeknights except to listen to songs
5. self-imposed curfew: (SHIT this is the saddest part D:) 6pm every day for every day except wednesdays & fridays, unless got something on
I'll think of more as I go along. I think I'll have to put those 5 stuffs up on a list in my room if I want it to make a difference. YEP.
I feel so type-A-fied. if you know what I mean. but I really need to buck up. I can't afford to slack. I mean you guys can, but you're not going for the lit trip to uk, for two whole weeks of the june hols! that means two less weeks to mug and shit like that. not that I'm not happy going, but I CAN'T FUCKING SCREW UP MY CTS?!
because! I will not be the person I was before sec4 eoys last year. I refuse to be that horrible idiot. that stupid bitch is like dead, she's like in a grave, somewhere in limbo, and I won't even look back because I don't want to, because I don't need to, because I sure as hell don't have to.
a lot of things in my life have been circumstantial so far. which kinda sucks, but I'm damn lucky that things happened that way. I'm only in RJ b/c I was in rg, if I wasn't in rg, I would've gotten 12-13 points, and gone to some other jc. I was only in rg, cos I appealed and they let me in because one of my family members was from a raffles school. if not I'd be in mgs. honest.
's why I think o-levellers pwnzx. they're not fakers like most of us in rj. D: but it's okay we don't have to think about that. what's important is As! As for the As will really prove that we're type-A straight-A students worthy of being in type-A schools for type-A straight-A muggers! WOO.
I LOVE ME NOW. I BET YOU DO TOO. YEAH THANKS, I LOVE YOU TOO. :D :D :D
AHHHH DAMN LATE READY, I WANNA GO SNORE. BYE (I don't actually snore, I swear over my dead body, but you know.)
posted by aney @ 1:44 AM
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