you know what the most handy song is right now? numb, linkin park. i can't think of any other song that better explains whatever the heck it is I'm feeling right now. i can't even feel anything, that's the thing.
it isn't bloody fair, dammit. why cant I be allowed to love who I want??? why must I be deprived of the chance to feel what it's like to have someone who fucking cares about you a whole lot? why can't I find someone who cares more about what's inside than what's on the bloody outside, fuck it. whyyy do I always fall hard for the assholes? why must I always be the fucking back-up plan?? better still, why is it always me that fuckers like you choose to play around with and then drop me faster than I can say 'wiener'? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
that's the fucking problem. why me, dammit. why not them?! if anyone deserves not to have people caring about them it's them, it's not me, what did I ever do to the world?? I'm not a bitch, I've never done anything wrong to any girl before, just because I like to be mean. I've never backstabbed anyone, I've never badmouthed anyone on a whim, I've never scorned another girl just because she doesn't live under the same circumstances as I do. I've never thought I'm better than another girl just because she doesn't have the same things as I do. hell I'm not even a motherfucking bimbo, I never sashayed around swaying my hips and trying to look as demure as possible just to get guys to like me. I'm not like of any of them!! so why is it that it's so hard to find that one idiot that I'd give everything and do anything for?? and they're the ones who're finding partners faster than I can snap my fucking fingers
IT ISN'T FAIR.
FUCK THIS.
posted by aney @ 9:27 PM
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