\since we're such awkward bedfellows

I was actually feeling quite like a piece of shit (join wenqiang's club!) tonight, and I was planning to mope around all night but I went online and started surfing youtube (don't look at me like that) and I came across this video (: damn funny! it actually made me laugh. which was nice. but I still feel like there's a huge weight on my shoulders. anyway here it is!



hahaha! the guy on the left is damn funny! his facial expressions and everything ^^ especially at the start of the vid LOL (x

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well let's get down to the nitty gritty. why I actually wanted to blog in the first place. I don't think I'm gonna do much work tonight. I feel like my wings have been clipped, somehow, you know figuratively speaking.

I took the longer bus route home from tuition today so I could stare out of the window at the passing cars and trees and think. about things. and about people. I shouldn't have done that, I don't know why I decided to indulge myself in the first place. it just seemed like a good idea at the time cos I needed a timeout I guess. :S

I don't much like going full circle. I suppose if I hadn't gone full circle I wouldn't have learnt some things about myself that I never would've learnt otherwise... and I appreciate that I had the chance to actually do something about the parts of myself that I didn't like. it isn't like I'm perfect now but I believe I'm a better person now than the one I started the year with. (:

but well I'm back where I started and I would really rather be anywhere but here. take me away, dump me some place I never thought I'd be, but I don't want to be where I am right now! figuratively speaking! after 8 months I'm back where I started, it sort of negates all my attempts so far at leaving it behind.. I didn't try so hard to get away from this just to end up in the same place after 8 months, cmonnnn.

I wish I woulda seen this coming, then I coulda stopped short of reaching this godforsaken spot. ugh.

whatever. tomorrow's a new day and a new beginning, I'm gonna leave you behind for good. it's gone on long enough and I should regain my sense right now. NAO. I hate this. ):

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I had no idea you could be so whinyyyyyyyy. omg. (this is a different 'you' from the last one) 'I dont wanna studdyyyyyyyyyy. I wanna see people!' gosh. you can be such a sissy sometimes -.- I just realized how potentially gay you could be. OHWELL. wha'evs!

till tmr!

posted by aney @ 9:18 PM