I seem to have subconsciously decided to mug the hardest for econs haha. I mean I have no recollection whatsoever of consciously deciding on mugging econs until my ass drops off. I haven't even started on history and lit and yet I cannot let econs go. well good luck to me.. cts damn gg ready la. lucky it's only 15% sia T_T
well anyway! aiyoh. to be honest, I'm kinda getting irritated by people constantly asking me, whether it's on msn or in real life, or by sms, anything that has to do with mr longterm and why I rejected him and how come, cos you thought I really liked the guy, and he's real sweet and everything. sigh. okay I know the decision's kinda unexpected, but please. I don't really wanna think about it anymore. final answer: I've got my own reasons, alright? if you want, you can ask my close friends I guess, but don't ask me anymore, please? each time I explain why, it hurts. I really do not wanna think about hurting someone who doesn't even deserve to be hurt in the first fucking place. so please just gimme a break guys? ask anyone you think I'm close to if you even want to know why. just don't speculate and spread rumors or whatever okay? thanks.
I've had my fair share of rumours and lemme tell you it's not nice at all. especially when someone gets hurt in the process!!!
lol I'm sorry, just been a lil bit edgy the whole of today. ):
and I've got something else to say. apparently this year I have a self-defense mechanism that kicks in instantly when I realize I'm actually falling for someone and that someone else is falling for me. it just snaps on like that and I don't even think about what it makes me do until it's too late haha. I'll always end up squishing the guy's hopes. only to realize later that by squishing his hopes, I'm not actually doing myself a favour at all, because he leaves me alone once his hopes are squished.
and before you ask if I'm sure and if I'm only imagining things after it happened just once. it's already happened thrice. bad enough. time to make things right? I think so. well I'll try. haha.
AND. I'M. SORRY. to rectify all that.. well I don't expect whoever I hurt to completely pardon me.. but I hope it'll count for something. (eek okay haha bite the bullet! x) I am not obsessively in 'love' with anyone right now, and I doubt I will again, for a long time...hm. I have learnt my lesson. never fall for someone who's just simply hot but is just an empty shell. better to be with someone who might not be the dictionary definition of 'handsome' or anything (:P) but is charismatic, loves to joke around, no matter how lame (or not) his jokes might be, and most importantly, easy for you to hang with. (:
well I said my piece. I can only just sit and watch if anything happens. I hope it does. I don't wanna lose him.
aiyoh.. whole post damn drama leh. T_T okay whatevs I'm going back to econs now bye!
posted by aney @ 11:31 PM
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