did some last-minute shopping with joanna and polly just now at orchard, at (where else?!) far east. yep. quite productive! mm for me at least, I know joanna got her shoes, I don't know if she eventually got here wristlet thingum. polly was just tagging along even though she suddenly found 50 bucks in her purse. I managed to get 5 tees and a small bag for like 70bucks in total! AM I A GOOD DEAL-FINDER OR WHAT HUH. HUH! HUH! :D :D :D hahaha. no lah far east just like that damned easy to find cheap stuff. best thing is that they're not cheapSKATE! but they're CHEAP! even the SKATEr stuff are CHEAP but not cheapSKATE! HAHHHH
well in other news, I think I just broke someone's heart? haha. I don't know, I really don't understand. I think he's being oversensitive because well. he thinks too much about stuff. D: but you do still feel lousyy when you hurt someone. heartbreak's the worst. horrible. I mean I'm sure everyone's been there before.. it sucks ahh. when someone breaks my heart usually I really feel worse than a piece of shit. don't know about you.. but it really hurts. then again. ahh I have a really weird relationship with this guy. if you can even call it one. so I don't get why he was hoping for so much from me. ah. ): but. I wish he hadn't.
I know I'm gonna regret saying that tomorrow. haha but today is today. I mean tonight is tonight. tomorrow is another day, yay(:
TOMORROW I'M LEAVING FOR LITTRIP! O M G. the reality just hit me. wow. it's like, the longest I've ever been away from home without parental supervision. yeah, there'll be adults, but there'll be no one to tell me what I can or can't do! well besides the usual safety precaution stuff that the teachers have to force upon us ah. THAT'S FUN! :D haha okay well not really, I think I'll miss them at some point in time. ):
and it's quite scary. i'm not fully independent yet. and come to think of it uk is such a huge place and I'm so teeny tiny and it's so easy to get lost. and I'll be literally on the other side of the world from my parents. AHHH CLINGY MUCH, AIYOH. why the sudden manja-ness man :P
okay now I'm both scared and excited. HAHA. well good luck having a good night's rest tonight, me. I know I'm gonna lie awake in bed and stare at the ceiling doing nothing but think about him. and how one month is a really long time. prolonged by two weeks where I'll be overseas.. I'll miss him. ):
I don't feel like there's school at ALL, tomorrow. D: hurhur. in actual fact I have quadruple history tmr. ROCKS MY SOCKS RIGHT! tutorial-lecture-tutorial-tutorial. and I'm still not done packing. I've got all the reasons in the world to pon. but NO!
wow. eh I'm really gonna miss him, omg. help! ): the entire way home just now I couldn't think of anything else but. him. I wish I knew how to tell if my feelings are reciprocated or not. I can'ttt. I mean people say they are but I'm more or less done with completely believing what people tell me. I want to judge for myself. and to me, there's nothing going which shows anything at all right now. okay maybe just abit, but it really doesn't amount to much and I don't think it's supposed to mean anything either. aw man I don't know lah, I wish I could just tell! like that! -snaps finger-
and I wish I could make him see what I see in him. to me, he's just the sweetest thing alive right now. if I had just one more night with you, if I could lie with you under the stars, if I could tell you everything I feel, if I could say everything about you that makes me love you, I would. he's got the purest heart of gold I've ever encountered in anyone. if you tried to pawn his heart at a pawn shop, you wouldn't get any money- it's priceless.
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HO-KAY I'LL STOP IT WITH THE DIABETIC CRAP
but I really do love him because of who he is. (: he's awesome. (: (: (: (:
ehh I'm falling asleep already. cannot! must continue packing. BYE!
posted by aney @ 11:48 PM
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