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CLASS CAMP!

CLASS CAMP! :D

alright before I dive into the what-happened-when and everything else, lemme just say, CLASS CAMP WAS FANTASTICCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC :D I know I said I didn't think it'd help, but haha it did. (: I really really hope the effects are gonna last beyond like a few weeks or something, because that would suck.

anyway, I LOVE A01C (: (: (: I'd put that heart smileyface thingy right here but it'd screw the html shit up or wtv so T.T

1. ropes course - tightrope + logs

ropes course was my personal favourite part of the camp. (: it was so challenging, both physically and mentally. it seemed impossible to do at first. it isn't like I haven't seen it before, I mean duh. but my first reaction when I realized that I actually had to climb up and CROSS that skinny little rope up there with nothing but a pathetic (okay it wasn't pathetic la) rope clipped onto my back as my LIFEline (literally) I was like 'bloody hell. SHIT.' and then I stared and stared some more at the tightrope and eventually apprehension became enthusiasm and I volunteered to be the first one to go up and do it wahahaha. I think I was having one of my random daredevil-ish moments. sort of like, "eh it looks damn tough, that's cool, let's do it!" 8D

but I was damn slow ah. cos i really was terrified. it's SO damn scary lah!! I know the rope's damn secure, but I still felt like I was gonna die if I slipped. plus, aiyah paiseh lah! hahaha :P anyway, moving on! I inched along like a snail, and I finally reached that platform midway. now it was the TIGHTROPE in front of me! I was stalling at first cos like eh damn scary ahhh, I really wonder how acrobats in circuses and everything can actually go on a tightrope with nothing but a safety net to catch them underneath if they fall. it's really very scary. I was screaming so much. more than I should have lah, actually. hurhur. but you know, the more I stalled, the harder it is for you to get your ass moving and put one foot on that stupid rope. that, and the daredevil thing again. damn weird 0.o but I'm glad I was having such a moment hurhur I probably would've taken longer if not.

I made it to the other platform and brandon (camp facilitator) was like EXCELLENT! GOOD JOB! and I was like ummm really? I was damn slow. but okay I did a good job YAY (: haha but brandon's a really nice guy ah. he doesn't make you feel like he's the teacher and you're a student. I like teachers like that. (:

then the other course, opposite the tightrope, the logs. it was damn fun! scary, given, but YEAH, fun! so fun that me and quynh anh were seriously considering going again. but eventually we decided not to. damn tired ah.

2. ropes course- labyrinth.

seems deceivingly easy.. but it wasn't. I didn't even finish it. it's really damn tiring. requires a lot of arm strength. the daredevil moment had already worn off when I was on this, but what made me actually want to go was, I wanted to see how far I could go, how far I could push myself, how long I could I force myself to stand the strain on my arms. yeah. it was a good experience. even though I didn't make it to the top. the secret is not to complain, both to yourself, and out loud. yeah it's damn painful but if you just forget about it and focus on what you have to do, it makes the job ten times easier, really.

I wish I could've reached the top, but it's okay, I got what I wanted. I managed to push myself and press on despite feeling like my arms were gonna drop off and thinking 'omg my arms fucking hurt how the hell am I supposed to finish this fucking thing?!' yeah. I love myself (:

and one more thing! while I was clinging onto the planks at some point in time and the feeling's actually quite great. random though it is to say this now, but yea it was, if you just stare at the field and the specs gal, it's an awesome feeling. not like the scenery's great (HAHA) but it's just nice.

3. first day at ubin

not much to say of the first day. the best part of the first day at ubin was the night, actually. even though it was kinda cloudy, you could still lie down at the amphitheatre/cooking area there and stare up at the velvet sky and see a few stars here and there. I was lucky, cos I happened to get a spot where if I just lay down and stared up, I'd be looking directly at a pair of stars that were just beside each other, twinkling right there, like the cosmos were watching me 8D feeling quite peaceful as I lay down and for once I didn't emo. hahaha. and then qiwen came along and I sorta went crazy after that. we did batch dance together, how bout that, hahahaha. not that it was a very successful attempt at it. but still. xD

ohyeah before that! we had like a briefing of the programme for the next day. and uh reflections of the first. yeah but more importantly the class decided to play truth-or-dare and I-have-never. typical games you normally play. but the point is that the whole class was doing it together, as in like one big family. not like you know, one clique here, another clique there, few people left out here and there. it was really nice! :D and I think the general desire to sabo specific people in class helped with the bonding too. hurhur.

after that it was lights out! bathe, pack, slack, chitchat, play cards, whatever. I just fell asleep right there in my sleeping bag. quite a tiring day.

4. second day at ubin!

KAYAKING. well we only spent two hours on this and needless to say that's not quite enough... but despite the fact that we kept going in an s-shape all the way to the kelong and back (hurhur) I still think that it was a good experience for everyone. (: made us realize the importance of emphathizing with another. yupyup. and I was really quite surprised that whole class could work together to get to the kelong. unity. you know. I thought everyone would just do things out of their own accord. but YAY I'm really glad we were able to pull together. (the ONE! TWO!s were an integral part of this I think)

halfway to the kelong some of us dropped out of our rafts and into the water, just for the fun of it. it's quite fun actually, if you forget about you know, like jellyfish and shit like that. if you hold on to the front/back of the boat and just lie on your back and stare at the sky, you get a really nice feeling. like you can fall asleep right there. woohoo. except that you'd wake up with a sunburn that makes you look worse than heinz ketchup (:

THEN! it was back to camp, pack up, went back to rj, reflections again, then went home! uh well most of the class went home. I stayed on until 11+ for mcs drama prac. yeah. I spent half the break playing random games with a tennis ball with the guys. and then they started playing soccer with it. so I gave up and found something else to do. haha xP

yeah but anyway CLASS CAMP! was really very nice. I didn't expect it to be quite so helpful. in the sense that, um. now we know that it's not a question of whether we can or cannot click with one another. it's whether we choose to get to know one another better or not. I really really really hope things are gonna get better from here on out. [:

something completely unrelated: sometimes the best gift you could ever give to someone you love is to let him go even if every fibre of your being screams out against it, even if your heart's calling out for him in a way that it's never called out for anyone before, even if it really feels like your heart's being squeezed by an invisible hand so hard that it hurts. forget about yourself for once. if that's what makes him happy then do it. there'll be someone else, somewhere along the way. it's okay.

ALRIGHT. I'm damn late for school now, gtg bye!

posted by aney @ 9:13 AM