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...incomprehensible. I really don't understand why I'm feeling so mixed up. it's annoying. I'm not usually so confused with myself. I'm angry and disappointed and elated and amused and worried and distraught and highly confused and I want a tight hug so bad but at the same time I just wanna flush all my worries down the toilet bowl and just don't give a fuck about anything tonight
yucks feeling like this suck. loads of shit's been happening at school... few friends of mine are in really tight spots and I'm quite worried about them cos I haven't seen them around since I got to know what happened to them. sent a few sms-es here and there, had msn convos with them, tried to comfort them.. but it's just not the same as saying it face-to-face in real life. the human element's missing. you can't look into a person's eyes when you're online or sms-ing. you can't make em see you mean what you're saying, every single word.
then there's couple more people who are getting weirder each day... like getting more introverted when I know they're actually very much extroverted. or losing a lot of weight. but the thing is that they just act perfectly fine. but obviously something must have caused it. so I'm quite worried about them...
the rest is all my personal problems. haha. kay i wouldn't call them problems. how bout... shortcomings. :D not gonna say much.. cept that people are doing stuff that's good and bad to me I guess.. but definitely absolutely bad for them.. which is why I'm so darn confused. I dunno lah kay.
was just talking to engs online just now.. he explained some stuff about j2 life, cos I asked him. he says j1 is when you can work hard and play hard at the same time. but j2 is when you work hard and there's no time for playing hard at all. which is very freaky. damn scary in fact.. obviously you're gonna need quite a lot of mugging time. how the heck am I ever gonna survive As lahh?
someone, I can't rmb who, said j2s all go through 'drastic weight loss' at some point of time. which kind of adds to my worry. didnt really notice before but yea come to think of it I know a few j2s who serioulsy look like lost a lot of weight. SCARY LIKE HELL.
I gotta go now.. I kinda dozed off for like 15 minutes in front of my laptop xD honestly thouhg, EVERYONE TAKE CARE. I love you all, friends (: (:
BYE.
posted by aney @ 9:32 PM
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