\since we're such awkward bedfellows

omg britnaye!

omg I think I'm seriously turning into a bimbo.

I DON'T WANT.

at first I bought the red bag, the side carry one that I carry everywhere with me now. I love it, and I think it's really me, but apparently it's bimbotic. ):

okay that's not so bad! cos you know, it just makes me LOOK like a bimbo. doesn't mean I have to care what I look like, right. and then NOW

I'm suddenly like doing a lot of bimbotic hand actions. okay la just the one, but I keep doing it again and again.

just like picture an auntie, like you know the pck's wife rosie, that kind of auntie, saying "AIYA, NEMIND LAH" and then doing the hand action. there's a specific hand action they always do to that line right! the one that's like swatting a fly, but instead of going from left to right to shoo the fly away from you, you're moving your hand from up to down like you wanna the fly to be squashed onto the floor.

AIYA. basically it's just a bimbotic thing to do la, k?

scary shit.

I AM NO BIMBO. far from it, in fact... and I don't wish to be one either :D

anyways.

I realize I'm quite headstrong. I like myself a lot and I don't wanna change for anyone. sometimes not even when people that I love and treasure and respect in my life, tell me there's some parts of me that are bad, that I need to change. haha. it's just that most of the time when I decide I do wanna change, it's of my own accord, I'm not really concerned about people's opinions of me? ya. the only people whom I will change for are my family. my parents, my brother maybe not so (hahaha), my cousins...

cos I only seriously care about the kind of person I appear to be to others, when my cousins, or my parents, or my brother, tell me I need to change. basically we accept one another, weaknesses and all, but we don't tell each other to change unless it's absolutely necessary.

yea. wow you know I realize that the only reason that I know all this about my family is because of hari raya.

yea I know it sounds lame, but seriously. we were all walking around as one big group, and you really feel like you can never go astray when you just stand back and you watch the whole lively scene unfolding before you.

your cousins, the ones you've seen grow up, the ones who saw you grow up, your aunts and uncles, the ones who are always looking out for you no matter what, your parents especially... the ones who've even made your very existence possible.

everyone was joking around and poking fun at one another and stuff (that's quite normal for my family even on normal days) and I just stood where I was for a while, to watch everyone, and you really feel immersed in love, no matter how corny that sounds.

it's like you know that even if your life somehow went horribly horribly horribly wrong, like you screwed up your career majorly, you're down in the dumps, the sorriest state you have ever ever been, you could still get strength from these people cos they'll love you no matter what!

I really love my family. (:

...ohyea, went for lawsoc today, actually I think it's quite interesting. I went there thinking it'd be boring cos well, of all the people I know who went for the previous session(s?), they all said it's boring. but it's not. well not today's one anyway.

we did the oj simpson murder case. debate-style. only this time instead of errr props and opps we had prosecutors and defendants. cool stuff.

still got my mind set on psychology though. :)

peace.

posted by aney @ 7:30 PM